I do not know the entrance is only five months later. Calculated that only want to clear. To think clearly, I was ecstatic. If the time has been elongated to this, that how good.
So I ask A it knows how much time has passed the college entrance examination to the present. A once said: You think time is lengthened, let you take advantage of. how do you do not want to have to end, to end of the world? Fei Xiao, said: is Reebok, very, very nice, how soon end of the world look like. I think, blue and white together, always look at the color of the world's best, as long as there was not proper to free and easy to death, to fly up . I thought, it was awful, how can he wear so little clothes m he does not get cold?
at December 31, 1999 before, A whole world in my eyes is the most amazing people, like the gods the same. I think a god did my boyfriend, I have a lucky ah! my forehead touched the ceiling of the (Shanghai dialect, that is extremely good luck). So I turned to look at A, extending his fingers squeezed m warm arms. He turned, but I'm good natured smile. I think: Boy! (almost a off, to get to A. before leaving, I said on the phone to the A: Square, in the end contains much scope? including Yan'an it? including Tibet Road? package does not include the Weihai? in the end how much it?
A said that the People's Square is where?
I by six-lane tunnel to the People's Square. carriage a few hundred people, and I squeezed in the middle stiffly, what do not have to pull. six-lane tunnel has several extremely rude drivers driving style, so you think you may be thrown out the window at any time m, but this is not, and this one is very light very light brake up, as if a child carefully pull the pull the hem of your coat. I put Faith Yang Walkman in the song. I looked up from time to time to see many, many arm hung in a triangle handle on the top of my head swinging. This is a very comfortable little things.
car to a place near the tunnel entrance was clogged, long, long time did not move. in the car were starting to get upset , strangers, and strangers looked at each other, his face is very innocent look, said, Hey, this time, why would a traffic jam? Why would a traffic jam? Why would it? hh we asked each other warmly and with restraint, it seems that from the bottom of my heart very afraid of traffic jam. stood by me, a middle-aged women trying to turn away at me, eyes full of gentle sorrow and doubt.
car suddenly have become adults and children face discussions, to look out the window when the face mask in weak and fragile the breath. I started a little wary of: Today, these things have a strange odor. Why does everyone feel on traffic would be so upset? Why is a thorn in the side look like? my body huddled among vulnerable heart beating a little numb: My brain can not think of reasons, a little scary.
I was listening to Faith Yang. eardrums around, very powerful music soared, singing like Faith Yang a dagger, sharp, sharp, bloody painful. She sang a song, I remember that like asking, in the disappearance of two thirty. to Puxi, so he can rest. Speaking of not have a good rest, he smiled, Canruo Chunhua, just let me fall in love with him. But no, it is not necessary, because the A in the People's Square, waiting for me.
then car entered the tunnel on. I never looked at the roadside fence to have, then slowly rise up, rise up, the more the more engaging rose, the more the more engaging rose in my head joined together, until the last , with nothing. darkness first spread from the feet, and then the ring was surrounded us, me. I watched from the dark tumultuous owned, as of little loach got into my pores, like, began to dread: who we are do not know where this is heading. If the car entered the tunnel, never opened not come out, how can I do? If the end of the world can be met in the tunnel how to do? I think a week ago, A end of the world said about validation words. do not know why, in my mind, the end of the world is always only one person, a person I m not someone to die quietly in silence hh is not dead, more specifically, just go away, like a soap bubble as . I do not know to where to go, I do not know what I become, in short, I see Am I saw him waiting for me in the People's Square, in walking around the station, looks around, or so I believe he loves the Ferrari, then I believe the world, then I believe his luck. I saw him, but I can not call him, can not let him see me, can not tell him: I have gone, gone . I looked at him and saw his hand into the pants pocket, and out, smiling faces of the m suddenly I was crying. but I can not cry, I've been to the end of the world, I have no tears. proof.
I am panicky, craned his neck toward the car window to look. outside is dark. staggered one after another passing car as devils. motor vehicles through the tunnel, the issue of a shrill whistling sound. carriage was quiet, no one spoke m into the tunnel every time, passengers will always be quiet, surrounded by a flat rock with a dark face, no features of the worried faces. I'm afraid. I'm afraid when the car out of the tunnel, we found out is a gray, from the inside and outside the ring we go wrong in the wrong time of the dark that has been very distant. my dear Shanghai. my dear love's not immediately clear to A. end of the world!
car out of the tunnel , the driver was a sigh out of thin air: a man is really hard. in the car people laugh. I saw the head elevated, the heart of a song, also smiled.
I get off at People's Square, he saw A hand in his pockets, and went straight out, waved to me. So I went over, hit the rub to a another person. I have in mind a thousand times a thousand times thank you end of the world, thank you it does not come so quickly m This is what I had ever encountered the most fortunate, even lucky lottery than the benefits.
But how do I say this all on A clear it?
A, said: ? can not say no before and after. We are only just beginning to walk, perhaps forward, maybe backward. five so-called.
A asked me: Yes. Why? Oh, to know enough. the state are just walking inside, one up on the so heavy. I can not say this is good or not. We have come off the track Yan'an East Road, went to the small road next to go. Some people hate the big street below the elevated , I would not. especially the time walking in the Huangpu District, elevated below, I always think of it outward spread out 71 m road. each entered the Huangpu District, they want to put a recording said: Huangpu District, the district is building something and sanitary demonstration area of civilization, that you abide by seven non-standard. sounds over the top, Huangpu District, is a serious area. But I know, A is not like the big road. C always say, A is one of the most tasteful. for the first time I heard, I was surprised and asked how could one say C, C look at me, saying, of course. m seems no doubt that this is an opinion thing.
we go from the Huangpu District to the Luwan District. Luwan District, there are so many little thin and curved road, go me dizzy. A band I Sinan walked back and forth, over and over again to see the big house. That is liberation cover here, which was home to rich people all day and fall in love, Romeo and Juliet. I said: Many caterpillars. Here is how I love these silent melancholy big house. I said: newspapers, to go home every evening, opened the door, step on the foot are Newspapers like the cat rushed to his feet as he sighed: Shanghai Times the atmosphere of doom.
later, I finally left A Sinan. I did not start beating the roadside trees for every one, like this one, one, one hh beat rhythmically down. A said: Nigeria: Zhou Zhao brow slightly dazed, his eyes move closer together, ever closer to infinity, never close. I love Winnie the Pooh.
Sinan when we left, the evening is approaching the year 1999 left the few hours. A, said: a good place, we must come before the end of the world m or, in the end of the world m that day to see it? In short, since it is a place to go, then the heart is very safe, that end of the world will not come at once m I now know that end of the world is not half way up, and it is to come, we always pick one off the hands and feet are swinging out of thin air time. end of the world is so good, the best thing in the world.
A take me to the one very, very old house, typical of foreigners living in senior apartments before liberation. It stands revival on the road, in front of it is elevated, but point is in front of Fuxing Park. However, if the house on Fuxing Road, elevated, Fuxing Park, ignore all these things. We stood at the gate house, side by side watching m toward the inside is a dark hallway, leading to a staircase, the stairs behind the large windows set off by intricate patterns of cast iron railings, there are numerous vague trance small iron filings have dropped. I stood quietly outside the house is still A. A said: again: .
the hall covered with small pieces of mosaic, spell out good-looking geometry, after so long do not know how long m m still very delicate looking. iron carved staircase, a level, climb up the dark crispy inside. A walk in front of me, holding my hand, a cross-level carefully. Every stairway filled a dim naked light bulb, the yellow walls of m according to a more yellow light that in addition to being its a small space, the building's most deep in the dark. A, said: Hey he smiled and said: to you, it will go. Do you think ghosts are just like you do not speak truth? go upstairs, smiling, said: not premeditated? , make a Waner, through a yellow wall stickers on both sides of the two block very close to the short aisle, to a very spacious balcony. seems to do now is common balcony, filled with a mess of waste, but they still out at a very delicate, half-moon shape is curved, clear lines, very, very nice. I used to lie on the railing and saw the garden downstairs, there's an extremely slender garden beautiful trees, are not to call out up.
I straightened voice said: stand behind me, eyes very soft very soft, warm, very warm chest m just at my back a thousand years of the evening.
in our opposite years which is an apartment building, with bright yellow cement Picking the walls. across a laugh garden, the evening sunlight scattered asymptotic brightly in that musky smell was emitting a faint yellow wall of Tanzania, from its surface free from many of golden powder, dissolve in the air like poison years, into our heart, the left atrium. right atrium, left ventricle, right ventricle, pocket all night. I'm holding my own hands, to see ah see ah, look at a never-ending. I was so loved here. Here it lovely m extremely violent spirit. I love the love hurts.
A said: is the end of the world. Heroically the heart ache. I said: boating. Huangpu go to plan. ; I said: you? Shouting loudly up.
A out of me and that big end of the world if the United States was the apartment, head fly from the gas, the park across the road to recovery. on the road, A said: I said: The. We turned around a few times, because in the drug, unstable legs, then oh well sitting slumped on a bench under the tree Indus. I A, I like the park, plane trees, because not built, so long very slender, the branches are to enjoy the stretch, a very healthy look excellent, so beautiful. A listened to her and said, ah, ah, ������.
A question I recently have not read any books. I said no to it, So ask. nothing. very serious and responsible way for a moment, smiled and said: : his words than his party great. a separate section, increasing the interval novel look like? but could not think of a little bit could not think of mm. So I said to myself. A's argument is too strange.
Luwan District residents so that we loved sitting in the revival of the park, while saying this, while saying that, more often too lazy to say anything. the evening the wind to blow away the winter sun. That the sun is a heel unstable guy, weak, warm-hearted, left, dozens of furry gloves with fingers in the Indus Road and lawn wavering between the swim move. I watched it, lovingly. I know it gave me to a hidden promise, although I could not guess what it is. I'm too dumb. man alive stupid. not far from there who play the accordion m So pull off into the sun as being dead tour hangs as the tune shift, and always refused it down to my side, and the bare plane trees in the high branches to slide to slide on tiptoe. A quietly put his hand m in my very warm on the neck, three eight degrees and a half so warm.
dear, I say, my dear, dear, dear. m suddenly I became like a Soft hands neck down. He looked at me, eyes full of depth to at least one liter container of weakness. I know, I like him m with a spring in my heart loosened, and never loose out . We looked at each other, weak smile. before then, we never like to know too much heart to heart m we can even touch the shape of each breath. I stare long Amm I certainly know what he would say.
he said: Fuxing Park after what happened are so sad. the future is so sad. I do not want to write more. Give me a break.
the twelve months before the college entrance examination early in the morning at six thirty, we do not three-no Four large group of people from camping out when the base, C asked me: shoulder, one can not experience the look, said: very boring, very happy, very boring. A man sitting in the open and no expression, it means what? , how boring? I said: ; I said: positive, enthusiastic, excited, excitement, irrational, mood, mental disorders can be m how to say. This hot scene is certainly worth a photo. This class is so hard. energetically walking up and down, singing energetically, vigorously to laughter, clapping, dragged up, cheer, to drink half the beer cans tossed, energetically too strange. We are in the camping base in the fourth day of sophomore summer, in the open air, but we have neither the day no, we eat all day long as a group, like plankton, live in dreams, we are happy to sing la la la, in bright colors, the air filled with the aroma of roast duck swinging.
A singing that waste was not blue, so blue heart Toru Toru lungs. I looked at the A in this blue inside, do not understand why he would be so nice in this blue. He wanted the man side of the blue flag, no component, in the I said, what eyes shine, I Victim, I want his nice clothes steal the items. B and very evil smile and said, fie. so I do not like the B ring of the m so smart who always put other people's words inappropriate words. and sit a while, B stand up and say, now I do not prevent you from Victim, I have to sing, I sing the songs the Soviet Union. Then she was gone.
sat for a while, A song came over and over, sit B and that place just to sit. I applaud to him intentionally, he said very earnestly: bored? ; Oh girl do not ass fart, It was dark, really is very black and very black m although they hung on the tree lights, but the A side so blue it can not be relieved against the blue of the flag, it was quite dark around.
A B has been enjoying the singing, I have been enjoying A blue dress. He did not look back, suddenly surprise, says: second group activities is my preparation, you are so nutation down the brain, and I did not face more! the smell of human A m have a smell, right? A blue and looking over the smell should be less of a thing.
I said: up, his head wagging, proudly said: a memorial to the arms, so it is the Soviet Union severely punished. I have in my possession did not use m has been scrapped. entrance end of the day, you do not want to play all night today? , to pull off one by one went to the examination room, stadium, arena, battle, fight to the bitter m how it will be like today? A did not ignore me, still happily said: go to Dunhuang. people chosen well, and there was you. She began singing and B together. surrounded by a noisy device.
I asked A: classes to go. , did not move. so take a long time, and he's doing it again attack, raised his head and began to wait and see the sky, has been observed down. What I am oh things to do in the next. This evening, I am very content with this content with this lack of the state of things to do, really happy, is not rare for something to do justly m really happy. tragic waste of my time, waste of my young life. I A tragic to sit with. A man hh this person.
like this do not know how much time is spent, he suddenly straightened arm, said excitedly: but when the Jizhan Deng aircraft. I said: and then said slowly: Who would go to him. just started A high spirits. He sat beside me, the sky outside the galaxy from a plane, a few meters away there are many people using alcohol to spread mad m so he began to say how he how long for Paris, Paris, how much good, he said he should go to Paris once a ruin, and that after a certain amount of money to take me to Paris. I'll say Yes Yes Yes Yes. However, this does not mean I do not doubt him then I do not know whether the recognized Kazakhstan.
that night, our class must also promised a lot of people and the A's commitment to these same type of shit. This drink wine with us is relationship . but apart from the wine outside, it seems there are other reasons. hard to say.
A after drinking alcohol, much like the old man talked of any thing. to the last lot of people went to sleep, but also one or two people cry randomly: As A, is still sitting in place, hand holds bottles, chatter. in A around the earth and brick in the small gap and a myriad of small insects and chatter with him. A dress like a blue flag-like T-shirt, white pants, dark shoes NIKE, did not stand up and walk a few steps, then fell to the floor, waving to shake off, much like insects king.
Lake left the base camp at half past six in the morning. Other people I went fairly fast, slow and I am a man dragging. A and C at the gate waiting for me. the car to start, when despair seized I, strangle my throat, I cried all cry. selected physical or History? I have to choose a summer vacation period. B sitting next to me, still singing. A look back over the poor less and less camping base, shouting: Jiujin teach their wits. I personally think that this time A cry is the most outstanding creative planning.
again and go with A million pieces in the city when the road rancid, A asked me, he said yesterday something. I said: Elysees on both sides to stop the aircraft. You say you want to buy a plane. you said, your last social practice, the factory workers to learn a lot of fun to, you will want to take me to play. you say that both the plant like paradise, have all looked incredibly uncomfortable, workers worked slowly, lazily, about to close down the gang look like, but the benefit not to bad. Do you feel so-so. you feel happy inside to death, I said I hope I'll play with when they do not close or rectification, or how boring. you said to me after the entrance to the Dunhuang play. Anyway, you always have to take me to where to where, if I bring this person it is easy to bring the same.
when I say, A has been laughing, smiling with shoulder bag later fell also fell into the hands of the m first, then said: You say, What day is designed so that people worry about things that wind and rain, and will not fall, and in this special scary stuff What is the magma, and will not be strong earthquake off, the time to do anything What is special I'm sorry people feel sorry for myself, the whole universe. But today we have no day without night, the time is not, so it can be very happy.
Later in the film we see the roadside. do not know what the film, the actors do not know, I saw water tankers in the water, causing rain-like, the building still pull a good few banners that read: ; fart! is it really boring? He sighs. he took me to place too much: a moment of Dunhuang, while the same is paradise plant, while in Paris, while another is where I want to go can go.
A sent me to the station. I said, Station Road, go a little farther right? He said, No, no, today is not in any way determined to die, I must add back to sleep. I said, you said you wanted to take me to my place? He laughed, in front of a station is where you want to go? or your home is where you want to go? I heard, the more gray head and gray brain up. We stand in silence and other vehicles, and suddenly I quietly run farther, A look at the most eagerly like a flag of blue as the blue flying endless. I stared hard at him, trying to never forget in my heart that the blue color of the blue m loud and clear, bright like the loud singing. I thought: Well , he lived this life is really worth.
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